Original artwork description:

I'll be the first to admit that I don't like to admit weakness. I don't like to admit depression. I try to hide it all from the world with a smile. The hardest thing for me to do is ask for help or let others see me cry. We all battle those hidden battles within our hearts. Believing you HAVE to walk through the darkness alone.

For the past few months I had been struggling. Art sales were minimal at very best. I had a basement full of paintings I thought would sell at my January show. I couldn't bring myself to actually start painting again. I felt defeated. Worthless. That I was chasing a false purpose. It was getting harder and harder to hide it behind a smile.

But after a few long talks with some dear friends who made me finally realize I was not alone. And part of a day crying tears that bring healing. I finally let it all go. My stubbornness. My negative thinking. My poor me attitude.

Yesterday I put everything I was feeling onto a canvas. I spent an hour moving paint around. I felt freedom, joy, fresh air. Without even meaning too, a figure emerged in my artwork. Reaching towards heaven. Reaching towards the One that lifts us up and carries us when life is too hard to keep walking. I am never alone. I am priceless. I am loved.

I know this won't be my last battle with self-worth and defeat, but with the lessons learned, maybe next time it won't so long to ask for help.

The Beloved - A Lesson in Self-Worth is 18 x 24 inches, oil on canvas panel. It is signed on the front and signed/dated on the back.

Materials used:

Oils

Tags:

#oil painting #figurative #abstract #red #painting #blue #texture #colorful #green #abstract art #abstract painting #emotional #powerful #loved #katrina case